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Pioneering Heroin Treatment Doctor May Be Struck Off

April 5, 2006

Guardian Unlimited | Special reports | Pioneering heroin treatment doctor may be struck off:

 

A world expert on the treatment of heroin addiction may be struck off the medical register after the General Medical Council decided yesterday that he had been irresponsible in the way he prescribed opiates and other drugs to some of his patients.The GMC’s findings will dismay those who think Colin Brewer, founder of the private Stapleford Centre, and his colleagues were saving heroin addicts from crime and destitution by maintaining them on opiates over long periods. Some of their patients say they have been able to lead normal lives for years as a result of the treatment. But the GMC’s fitness to practice panel yesterday found that Dr Brewer had acted irresponsibly and inappropriately towards 13 of his patients. It will meet again to decide whether to strike him off the medical register.

One of the Stapleford Centre patients died during a “home detox” undertaken at Dr Brewer’s suggestion. The patient, referred to as Mr GS, 29, and his mother were given an instruction sheet and 10 prescription drugs to sedate him and ease withdrawal. The mother failed to realize from the instructions that the patient had to be watched 24 hours. The man vomited in his sleep and choked to death.

The GMC was highly critical of the programme, which put the patient in charge of the drug dose and offered medical support only at the end of a telephone. The panel “did not consider this was a safe or suitable method of managing a patient who was being treated with large doses of potentially dangerous drugs and supervised by untrained carers. The instruction sheet was complex, unclear, confusing and inadequate.”

Many of the findings relate to the practice of giving patients long-term prescriptions with the result that they had large quantities of drugs which they may have been tempted to sell. One patient, referred to as Mr RB, was given a five-week supply of the opiate Phenazocine, which amounted to 1,050 tablets. Later he was given 28 days’ supply of Palfium, which came to 1,120 tablets. The panel ruled that Dr Brewer should have told the Driver and Vehicle Licensing Agency that another patient, Ms ST, was driving while under the influence of drugs. She had four car accidents. Another addict had anorexia nervosa and at one point her weight dropped to six and a half stone, yet Dr Brewer failed to treat her for it.

Six other doctors from the centre were also before the GMC. One of the doctors, Ronald Tovey, prescribed heroin for two patients at the centre. The GMC panel accepted that Dr Tovey gave them heroin for pain relief but the panel found he failed to act when tests suggested the patient was not using the drug. The panel will meet again to decide whether to discipline Dr Tovey and another doctor, Hugh Kindness. It dismissed the cases against Nicolette Mervitz, Anthony Haines, Timothy Willocks and Martin O’Rawe.

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The Rise and Fall of Kate Moss

April 5, 2006

The Rise and Fall of Kate Moss

By Rebecca Traister

September 23, 2005 | As the 1980s melted into the 1990s, a new breed of supermodel started stalking the earth. Her emaciated frame made Twiggy’s look chunky; she appeared permanently prepubescent; her sunken-eyed pallor made her look like a junkie. She was embodied by Kate Moss.

Moss and her band of wraiths not only drove insanely beautiful but fleshy models like Cindy Crawford and Kathy Ireland from magazine covers, they also slammed a heavy door on Nancy Reagan’s 1980s-era “Just Say No” campaign against drug use. Their message was louder and prettier than the prudish abstinence-pushing project led by Reagan. It was accompanied by the melodies of the drug-fueled conflagration that was the Seattle music scene. They were waifs. They were heroin chic.

Now, 15 years later, in a set of circumstances that have exposed the hypocrisy and sanctimony of everyone involved, Moss and the fashion industry are becoming accidental and unwilling poster children for a new anti-drug message.

Two weeks ago, during New York City’s Fashion Week, London’s Daily Mirror newspaper splashed its cover with an image of Moss — still a supermodel at 31, as well as mother to a 2-year-old daughter — cutting lines of cocaine on a CD jewel box. “Cocaine Kate: Supermodel Kate Moss snorts line after line,” blared the cover. An inset photo showed her leaning down to inhale the lines of white powder through a rolled up 5-pound note. Moss’ career is now in sudden free fall. She has since had her contracts with H&M and Burberry canceled; her longtime relationship with Chanel will not continue past October; and she’s been publicly spanked by employers like Rimmel and Gloria Vanderbilt.

News that models do blow is akin to news that rock stars have casual sex: not news at all. But the Moss humiliation was special. While photographers and models haunt the same VIP rooms, presumably sometimes partaking in illegal activities together, rarely do we see photographic evidence of cocaine getting sucked into recognizable nostrils. In this case, the Mirror — perhaps smarting from the pricey loss of a libel suit Moss brought in response to its allegation that she had fallen into a drug-induced coma in 2001 — had sent someone on an “undercover investigation.”

The “investigation” captured not only grainy still images of Moss’ inhalations, but a videotape of the debauched evening, which took place at a West London recording studio where her boyfriend’s band Babyshambles was laying down tracks. The boyfriend, Pete Doherty, is the heroin- and cocaine-addicted musician, burglar and all-around yuck-bomb whom the model has been seeing off and on for months. The press has been full of dire warnings to Moss about the perils of her relationship with him, with Doherty’s ex describing him as “evil.” Moss’ press-happy friend Sadie Frost told reporters that Doherty is “not the sort of guy you’d wish for your best friend. He’s very wild. Kate’s got a history of partying hard. The idea of them together is terrible.”

Of course, all this attention has made their romance all the more compelling, which in turn has lent the tale of Moss’ druggy downfall at the hands of Doherty and his skuzzy friends an even more satisfying frisson of comeuppance. Thanks to Internet technology, the images and lurid reports of Moss’ coked-out antics, including her twitchy nose-rubbing, conversational inanities, and chopping of 20 lines (she snorted five), have shot round the world in nanoseconds.

It’s this readily available evidence, perhaps, that has made the usually lifestyle-blind fashion industry turn so violently on Moss. Though she has not made a public statement about her recent narcotic consumption, Moss has spent the week meeting with the companies she represents. Swedish clothing chain H&M had announced it would give her a second chance, but canceled her contract on Tuesday, citing customer complaints. Chanel, a company for which Moss has modeled since 2001, released a statement claiming that it will not renew her contract once her current cycle of ads is retired in October. And while Burberry’s public statement was solicitous, pointing out that Moss has “worked successfully” with them over the years, and that she “has always been highly professional,” they too brought their relationship with her to an end, a decision that will cost them a considerable amount of money, since they will have to reshoot an already finished ad campaign.

Now it’s mostly a question of falling dominoes. Moss, who reportedly makes $9 million a year, will surely lose most, if not all, of her current gigs. Who will want to keep her on, when to do so would signal brazen public support of a woman whose drug use is now being investigated by Scotland Yard?

Of course, Moss’ real error was in getting caught on tape, a situation that is certainly unfortunate for her, but just as inconvenient for fashion companies, now forced to place their favorite clotheshorse in the stocks, and to distance themselves from her by proclaiming their wide-eyed innocence.

What this drama has done is lay bare the ugly skeleton that holds up a fashion industry that for some time has prized hollow cheeks and vacant eyes, stunted, prepubescent frames, and jutting collar bones from which fabric drapes beautifully. In other words, the body that is appealing to designers — and thus to consumers — is a body that looks like it has been ravaged by drugs. In order to stay employed, models must maintain this shape; to maintain the shape they must do something besides eat right and exercise regularly. Whether it’s cocaine or speed or heroin or caffeine or cigarettes or anorexia or bulimia or some combination of the above, most adult women cannot get bodies that look like Moss’ healthily, because hers is not a healthy body.

On Thursday, a spokeswoman for cosmetics firm Rimmel announced that the company was “shocked and dismayed by the recent press allegations surrounding” Moss, and that it would reconsider its relationship with her. Earlier, the CEO for Gloria Vanderbilt denim had told the press, “We would have second thoughts about using Kate Moss” again, and that “we weren’t aware of any issues with Kate prior to this campaign.”

The fashion companies’ professions of surprise are hard to believe. Would it be more embarrassing for them to admit they hired a model who they knew had done drugs than it is for them to admit to never having picked up a paper? Moss has spoken of her own drug use many times, and did a widely reported stint in rehab in 1998. She has denied heroin use, and often claimed she was clean, but in 2003 she gave an interview in which she said that dabbling was fine, but that an earlier period she’d spent immersed in drug use “wasn’t a nice time.”

Moss’ record alone renders Gloria Vanderbilt’s and Rimmel’s assertions of naiveté ludicrous. And what about H&M’s statement to the New York Times, that “If someone is going to be the face of H&M, it is important they be healthy, wholesome and sound”? The spokeswoman also told the Times that after feedback, “we decided we should distance ourselves from any kind of drug abuse.”

Remember Capt. Renault’s assertion to Rick Blaine in “Casablanca” that he is “shocked, shocked to find that gambling is going on in here,” just before the croupier hands him his winnings?

If it were important that the face of H&M be healthy, wholesome and sound, the company would have very few working models to choose from, and everyone — both in and out of the fashion industry — knows that.

This week, London Police Commissioner Sir Ian Blair told the Mirror that they’re pursuing an investigation of Moss’ drug use because “We have to look at the impact of this kind of behavior on impressionable young people.” But measuring the impact of Moss and her behavior is long overdue. How many eating disorders have been launched by a fashion industry that put Moss’ look — no fat, no flesh, no physical sign that she has consumed nutrients — on every billboard and runway? For more than a decade, awkward 15-year-olds have scanned the pages of fashion magazines, trying to figure out what they are expected to look like if they want to be considered attractive. And what they found was Moss and the consumptive figure she made popular.

In truth, the impression that Moss has made in the past two weeks has probably been one of the healthier ones in her history — simply because this chapter of her life has made drug use and addiction look not like giggling fun for beautiful people, but like a habit that can be sad and grimy, and which can produce terrible personal and professional results. Those pictures of her were ugly. They looked sad. The rolled-up fiver was skanky, as was her outfit. This was not the glamourous Mediterranean bar-top bacchanal that some might fantasize about when they think about a model’s hard-living lifestyle. This was a filthy room with gross people.

And her professional offloading certainly hasn’t seemed like it’s been fun. Reports had Moss in tears when she heard that Chanel would not be renewing with her. The industry that sent her to the stratosphere has cut her loose without much of a second thought. When cornered by reporters after the Mirror story first appeared, a distraught Moss told them to, “Fuck off, fuck off, fuck off, fuck off! Just fuck off!” Her father, caught at his home in West Sussex, England, and shown the pictures of his daughter doing illegal drugs, said only, “It doesn’t surprise me.” A London Sun report today had Moss smoking crack, a drug that has no street glamour at all. The only good news, as reported in the gossip columns, is that she may have broken up with Doherty again.

But between her personal humiliation, professional tumble, declining economic prospects, soured romance, and dire image problems, Kate Moss — avatar of 1990s heroin grunge — has this week become a walking D.A.R.E. ad.

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I Miss You Heroin

April 5, 2006

I MISS YOU, HEROIN
by laura lang

If you think junkies have a ferocious hunger for heroin, consider spending every single day pretending not to be a junky. It’s incredible work. You see, junkies live outside the law; they need heroin, period. A functional addict needs heroin more. A functional addict doesn’t rob and pillage for heroin because there is a risk of being caught, and if you are caught you don’t get a reduction cure, you get sick and are then forced to quit. So instead the functional addict gets up every morning and goes to work. They work overtime. A functional addict operates the same way as a junky in regards to needing heroin. The difference is that a functional addict has the ability to wait.

For a functional addict time is something that isn’t shown on a clock. Before I quit heroin two years ago, I got up twenty minutes earlier than I do now. I never needed an alarm clock because I knew that it was time for a shot. I never hit snooze and I was never, ever, late for work. I would open my eyes and be in the bathroom fifteen seconds later. I went to work until lunchtime, when I would speed home for a midday shot. That shot would send me reeling, and I would head back to work to make another half days worth of pay so I could buy more junk that night. When I was at work, much like anyone else, I would look at the clock and count the minutes. But as a heroin addict, not only does time slow down, time stops if you need a shot. Working in a world where heroin is generally considered bad stuff is a bit tricky; you can’t exactly be high.

A functional addict has to have the ability to separate themselves from heroin enough to appear to be completely normal. Hiding my addiction was not very hard because most people have no idea that someone can be a heroin addict and have a job. People don’t recognize heroin addiction in a functional addict. The best way to hide your heroin addiction is to blame your symptoms on something else. A functional addict is a Hollywood film crew rolled into one person. I am an actress, a makeup artist, a director, and an editor. When people noticed I never ate, I acted as if I had an eating disorder. When I had done too much on my lunch break and had to throw up, I blamed my rush to the bathroom on my period or diarrhea or a vaginal problem. I didn’t give a fuck what people thought of my hygiene, as long as they thought it was a physical issue.

As a functional addict you must be very proficient with make up in order to cover track marks. Do you really think Aunt Sally and Cousin Susie aren’t going to notice if you’re wearing long sleeves in the summer heat? Of course people notice that kind of shit. You’d be surprised at how often people see things that are out of place. Being functional means not getting caught and not getting caught can take some creative measures. When people would notice something askew about me, I would change whatever they were noticing. I never had anyone pinpoint what, exactly, was wrong, but people came close. I had to play director in my own life. I had to be able to see myself as other people saw me, and edit out all the things that might jeopardize my supply of heroin. An addiction is a sickness in itself, but being sick because you don’t have whatever you are addicted to is infinitely worse. So I worked at being an addict.

Being a functional addict gave me an entirely different perspective on life. I mean, besides the fact that I didn’t have a savings account, looking into my life you would have thought I was just a girl. I wasn’t just a girl though. I did something everyday that no one ever knew about. Who I was at work and socially was my alter ego. I was pretending to give a shit about life because I needed and wanted my heroin supply to be constant. I was not an addict that surrounded myself with only other addicts; that’s dangerous business because junkies are much more common than functional addicts. In fact, I’ve only ever known one other functional addict. Most of the people I knew and talked to and hung out with had no idea I was addicted to heroin. I faked my entire existence just to maintain my addiction. If I lost my job: no heroin. If my family or friends found out: instant intervention and no heroin. If I didn’t pay my bills: no place to shoot up. Suffice to say that besides paying my bills, all my money went to heroin. I didn’t buy new clothes and I didn’t go to the grocery store. My secret life was flawless, and quitting wasn’t because I couldn’t afford it, or someone forced me.

Whenever I think of heroin, I think of it fondly, but then I’m lucky. I was a functional addict, so I knew when enough was enough. I knew I couldn’t continue shooting heroin forever, and I know now that I can never be addicted again. I’ve seen what heroin can really do to people, and while throughout I’ve been saying it’s possible to be a functional addict, it is not possible to be a functional addict and accomplish anything. In order to be a functional addict forever, you cannot have dreams. You can’t think of a better life. You cannot be successful at the same time. You have to go to your crappy job everyday, and no matter how much you hate it, you can’t quit. You can’t look for a new job because you have to buy junk today. The best you can hope for is moving up within your company. With heroin it’s either all-in or all-out. Whether you are a junky or a functional addict, heroin runs your life. There is no time for anything else.

I hate myself for missing heroin, but I just can’t help it. Every summer I wonder if anyone notices my faded scars, to which I no longer apply makeup. Every morning I think about that purple Crown Royal bag I used to keep my works in. Every afternoon I wonder if Josie has oxycontins, morphine, heroin, or diladid today. I don’t remember every shot of heroin I ever took, but I remember taking a fucking shitload of them. I remember shooting up with a plastic spoon and saliva in the parking lot of a bank. I remember spurting blood all over a hotel room before a Jane’s Addiction concert. I remember using the electrical cord from a curling iron in my moms’ bathroom to tie off. I remember heroin. I remember how fucking great it made me feel. I mean, there were some bad points too, but the bad don’t add up to that one perfect moment; that moment heroin addicts live for.

It’s been two years since I shot up, but there are a million reminders everyday. These little insignificant things that my mind associates with heroin are everywhere. Walgreen’s and I have a very special relationship thanks to their acceptance of my bullshit diabetic card. When I can’t turn left, I always check to see how long the street is, and if it isn’t very long, I go the wrong way, just out of habit. I run red lights even though I’m no longer rushing to buy heroin, and I shake with excitement when I see confederate flag stickers on the back of trucks. I’ve spent more time waiting in front of a 7-11 than you’ve spent riding the subway. With all the time I’ve spent waiting for, chasing after, or shooting in heroin, I could have written twelve books.

I wish I could videotape myself writing this because I am shaking. It’s been two years since I last did heroin, but I know if someone were to walk in with works and a bag, I would have that needle in my arm before you could say HIV. I miss it. Sometimes I wonder how I have gone this long without even dosing once. And I look forward to a time when I can dose again. I even know when that day is, and I am counting down. It’s not until April though, so I have a while to wait. You might ask, “Why would you quit for two years only to take another shot?”

Well the answer is obvious. I miss heroin. I miss the routine. I miss waking up everyday and knowing exactly what I need to do that day. I didn’t even realize how much I missed it until just now. Just now while trying to put into words what I think about when I think about H. Besides, you don’t get addicted in one shot. I figure since I haven’t had one for two years I can have a couple, and be ok. But that’s a saga for another day. Actually I’m pretty interested to find out what it feels like after all this time. I’ll probably puke my guts out.

I’m not going to pretend that heroin is okay — most people who develop a real addiction to heroin never quit. I don’t know the exact statistic, but I know this previous statement is true. I am lucky to have been born with the willpower I have, and as stated previously, I only know of one other functional addict. I’m lucky to remember what I wanted before heroin. And what I want from life is much bigger and better than one small moment of heroin bullshit. But that one small moment of bullshit is something that I can’t get out of my head.

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Grrrr…testing

April 4, 2006

OK, now I am finding this Deepest Sender extension difficult to work with in Firefox. It would not for the life of me configure my WordPress account even though it said that it could. Hah! I guess that I should just shut up considering I even have Firefox available on this work computer. Normally our work stations have nothing more than Internet Explorer although there are a select few that also have Netscape plus two that have SlimBrowser. As I am a huge Firefox fan this is a most excellent discovery to be sure. I love all of the customizations that this browser has potentially available to it.OK I am actually doing this on work’s quarter so I must dash. I was just doing a real quick test!

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